2.Walking towards the sun

Woke up
And found myself through landscapes of grey,
Through fields of color change
Through skies that ever turns

Lght reveals a purple sun,
Ashining wall, a velvet lawn
Changing fast to ashes
And forming again
Filling me with flashbacks
And staying the same

Leaving my ideas on the ground
Walking towards the sun
I found myself alone
In this world of stone
Learning how to fly
I ran through the sky
Through a different land
In my final stand

Knowing, filling,
Touching this everywhere  
Lying, leaving,
Sitting under trees unscarred

Woke up
And found myself through landscapes of grey,
Through fields of color change
Through skies that ever turns
Light reveals a purple sun,
A shining wall, a velvet lawn

4.This troubled heart of mine
Part 2: Real

Sometimes I ask myself if you’re real
Not just substance, either flesh,
Not even human, but my other me.
It’s because of the way you touch me
The way you say I’m here, and bless Me…
With your smile.

Sometimes I don’t know if we’re real
Dancing with our eyes
Over this piece of ground
Holding our breath while we kiss,
While we touch, while we live!
As it never will end,
As it never will die,
As it never will die!

But you are real,
Sometimes more real than me
More easy to understand
Than this troubled heart of mine

Would you be there for me?
Would you be there to understand?
Would you hold me when I fall?
And still love me,
And still love me…

Sometimes I don’t know if I am real
Dancing with your eyes
Over this piece of ground
Holding your breath while we kiss,
While we touch, while we live!
Would you tell me?…
Would you tell me?…
Would you tell me?…

Part 3:

Father, I know
You’re here within me
But sometimes it’s hard to be quiet,
But sometimes it’s hard to listen,

When the world all turns gray
Not black, not white
Not a simple yes or no
Just an empty maybe

Oh Father please take me
Oh Father hold me again
Would you please
Would you please
Heal this heart of mine

This troubled heart of mine

6.Never Away

Here, my dear
Hear me whispering in your ear
Hear me think of you
Again and again, and again

Hear my burning heart
Burn in your desire
Feel my deep embrace
As you lay awake

Rest in me, my life
Come, rest in here your heart
Let me wash your worries
Again and again, and again

Let me be here warm
Let me be your guard
No fear, no cold inside
Come to me my life

Let me see your smile
Let me wonder in your eyes
Cause there I know no fear
No thorn stings in my heart
Here, don’t be afraid
Of falling deep asleep
Cause I’ll be here for you
And I’ll never go away

7.Tearing me apart

Why do you keep your face from me
Why do you laugh at my back
Why don’t you understand
That you`re taking me apart

What for God´s sake do you want from me
Why do you do this to me?
Why don’t you understand
That you`re taking me apart

Have you lost your sight
Are you weak outside
Or just a rotten heart
Are you blind to the truth
Are you cold inside
Let me have my guess...

You do like to bring me down, don’t you?
You do like to see me cry, don’t you?
You would like to breath me out, can you?
You would like to bring me down

Taking down
Taking down
Taking down
To the ground (BIS)

I just want to know
Why do you do this to me
Can’t you see you’re tearing me apart
Have all these years
Come and gone in vain?
Can’t you see that I just love you?

8. Look at Me

Look at me
No matter where I’ve been
Look at me
No matter, I have bled
Listen to me now
Cause your eyes don’t want to see
Do you see...
Me...

Stay with me
And taste a bit of pain
Stay with me
While blood runs through my veins
Drown with me a while
Cause you cannot take me out
Can’t you see
The dry tears on my lips 

Can’t let you go
Cause you’re all that I have
I’m the one who’s behind
Don’t leave me now
Cause I won’t let you go
But now I am deep down on the ground

Stay with me while I am naked
Stay with me (as) I lay alone
Could you wash away my tears
Won’t you hold me now

9.The Spectrum of Light

Silent I see, the purple sun, the shining wall
The velvet lawn...
I regret for the years past
And stare into the sun

Since I was young I felt this urge of moving
This need to cling to life
To explore the Sun
In my own calm rhythm

Blinded
Through all these years of nothingness
Faded
Into the spectrum of light
Bound
With my own hopes and dreams
Betrayed
By the ones I love the most

But it’s so common to be stopped
And keep looking down
And tell yourself it was nothing
But a reflection in the pool
That can be taken away with a movement of the hand

10.This Troubled Heart of mine, part 4

Vers 1:
So what it´s left but living, uhh, now
I will come home
Nobody cares but it`s worth trying, uhh now
I`ll be myself again

Bridge 1:
How would I`ve known
that I`ll end up like this
Not knowing how will it end
But in the end I would live
Knowing that at least
I can stare into the Sun

Vers 2:
All this charade I`ll have to end
It is clear now
Nobody knows that you´ve been trying, uhh now
But at least you do

Bridge 2:
You would`ve said
That at least I`m living a life
But sometimes (that) it´s not enough
It is like this
You have to grab what you`re living
Cause you can lose it any day

Corus:
Sometimes I don`t know what makes me real
But now I`m pretty sure
That I was meant to be
And you`re part of me as I`m part of you
Teaching me how to live
With this heart of mine

Somehow as the light plays with your hair
And shadows move through the window
Like infinite souls dancing desperately
I know that this heart of mine,
this weakness of my soul
Will never end, Will never stop
But you will help me live with it
And love me after all.